For a while now, I’ve been holding back from God the very things He asked of me to serve and love Him with: my mind, heart, and soul. I’ve watched my prayers go unanswered and wondered if He really cares and loves me. I’ve seen my dreams crash right before me and wondered why the doors of opportunity were shut in my face. So a part of me just wanted to lay back and pretend that I didn’t owe God my love, my life and my whole being. But I do. Every. Single. Day. Even though I haven’t always gotten what I desire, I believe that what God wants is the best for me. His word says, “…The Lord will give grace and glory: no good thing will He withhold from them that walk uprightly” (Psalm 84:11). And over the past few weeks, God has taught me that if I’ll “allow Him” to have his way, I’ll see his good plans unfold each day, regardless of the circumstances I face. He’s teaching me to trust Him completely.
The story that comes immediately to my mind is that of Abraham. First, God asks him to leave his country for a land that He, God, would show him(Genesis 12:1). Here’s God saying, “Leave what you know and what you have and go to the unknown. I’m leading you into the unknown. I want to bless you”. And Abraham doesn’t look back. He does precisely that. He let go of all he knew and probably thought he wanted and moved, holding on to God’s word. But this is not the part that captivates me so much. I move to Chapter 22, where he’s being asked to sacrifice Isaac, his promised child. And he does so, or at least intends to, trusting that God knows what He[God] is doing. Just when the sacrifice is about to be made, an angel calls out to him and says, “Now I know that you fear God”. Abraham was willing to sacrifice what he held very dear. We fear God[respect, honour, revere Him] when we can let go for Him: offering our most dear thoughts, desires and actions because He says so. After that, God gave him another opportunity in the form of the ram(vs 13) and blessed him. God had already promised him a blessing in the beginning, but he uses the words “Indeed” and “greatly” this time. Other Bible versions have the word “certainly”. There is a blessing in letting go for God. I tend to have a strong, stubborn will sometimes. And having my way doesn’t bring the joy, peace and strength to my soul that comes from obeying and trusting the Father’s ways.
Our sacrifices today may not be in the form of a son; they may be in the form of habits, desires, and mindsets that we have held on to for so long but are worth putting away. The sacrifices may be our will that we have to lay down so God’s will will be done; our time that we have to devote more to prayer and the reading of His word; our fear or anxiety that we set aside for faith; or the moral or lustful impurity that we set aside for holiness. We can trust that God has better plans for us and that the sacrifices He asks of us are for our own good so that we can live the full life that we have been called to in Christ Jesus.
“God, the one and only— I’ll wait as long as he says. Everything I need comes from him, so why not? He’s solid rock under my feet, breathing room for my soul, An impregnable castle: I’m set for life.” Psalm 62:1-2 MSG.
This post was originally published on July 10th, 2020.